I first discovered that this feeling had a name while watching Breakfast at Tiffany's. In the movie the fascinating Holly Golightly, played by Audrey Hepburn, explains,
The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all. The mean reds are horrible. Suddenly you're afraid and you don't know what you're afraid of. Do you ever get that feeling?That feeling.
Since I've been in college, it seems that once every three months I will wake up with a severe case of the mean reds.
What's a girl to do?
The nearest Tiffany's is 100 miles away, and classes get in the way of taking day trips on a whim.
During my most recent battle with the mean reds I found myself sitting at a desk, wishing there was some way to whisk the mean reds back to where they came from. At first, I tried to pinpoint the part of my life that was causing these mean reds.
I took a different approach and began making a list of everything that makes me feel secure and happy. When I finished the list I realized I felt better, not 100 percent, but better.
Finding what makes one happy is the best way to combat mean reds. I think this is what Holly Golightly was trying to say in the first place, if only I'd taken the time to listen and understand.
Here is my list. What's on yours?